Struggle

I am genuinely a positive person, but...not sure what exactly is going on tonight. I am struggling with depression or something. Maybe I'm bi-polar or just lack self assured mess. I am definietly struggling with my thoughts. Lonely, tired of the hopelessness in the world around me, the rhetoric and definitely missing God. Just struggling! People don't talk about this (mental illness). Christians especially. It's taboo or something; from the devil they say, but I'm not sure about that. Helps me to write. I love my family! Good night! B

First Blog

Since I couldn't sleep, thought I would start a blog. My wife is sponsoring these thoughts as I have no clue how to begin my own blog. I want to blog about my life...thoughts, experiences and purpose. I am a Christian so much will be blogged about this journey. Speaking of journey...just had a thought. I have taken different journeys in life...(childhood, adolescent, husband, father, college student, Christian, friendship, etc). I will likely blog about them all as I am very much a man who enjoys searching into the depths of relationships...how they start, develop and are sustained or discarfed. I wish to discover more of myself through these blogs and at the same time hope God will use my experiences and beliefs to encourage, edify and strengthen others. I have found I am stronger and more content in this life when others are genuinally share there thoughts and experiences with me. I listen to learn; to experience/relate; and I like to think I listen to help equip. Anyway...I appreciate sharing this time with you. Going to try and get back to sleep now. B