Struggle

I am genuinely a positive person, but...not sure what exactly is going on tonight. I am struggling with depression or something. Maybe I'm bi-polar or just lack self assured mess. I am definietly struggling with my thoughts. Lonely, tired of the hopelessness in the world around me, the rhetoric and definitely missing God. Just struggling! People don't talk about this (mental illness). Christians especially. It's taboo or something; from the devil they say, but I'm not sure about that. Helps me to write. I love my family! Good night! B